That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.

Top: Vintage, Handed down from dad | Cape: F21 | Pants: H&M | Socks: Uniqlo | Accessories: Far East Plaza Shades, eBay (Gold Chain Necklace) and Thrifted (Celine Inspired Bag)

"That's the thing about pain." Augustus said, and then glanced back at me. "It demands to be felt. - The Fault In Our Stars by John Green

Pain, a powerful emotion that can drive one insane and also a side effect from love. It triggers a certain kind of dark and evil emotion in you but yet at the same time, mysteriously beautiful.
Let's take our first heartbreak as an example. 

"I suppose it's like mourning, isn't it? As if like someone has died. Because you're so invested in something that, that part of yourself is dying. It's like, gut-wrenching isn't it? And then you get kind of, I suppose Yin and Yang. And then you have to try to feel whole of yourself again. Cause when you're in a relationship you are like, quite enmeshed in a way." -  Extracted from Dr Marten's First and Forever advertisement.

Pain demands to be felt, especially when you're trying to pick yourself up after a big explosion. You get constantly reminded of how it ended, however at the same time, the happy memories stick to the bad like crumbled pieces of pastries. Pain demands to be acknowledged. It tears you inch by inch on the inside. It keeps your mind wide awake at night. You try so hard to forget and just move on but there's always something that keeps you anchored down. It stops you from progressing. 

Years down the road, even though the past has stopped haunting you, bits and pieces of that broken glass still remains pierced into your heart. You can still remember small details of your first heartbreak, like how you remember the annoying emotions you get on a Monday morning, or like how you remembered the tiny details of that one person who had the power to light up your world or crush it with just their words.  

The pain still demands to be felt, but however less aggressive this time. That pain often leaves a mark, and that mark often becomes a scar. Something you will remember for a lifetime.
Evil, dark yet mysteriously beautiful. That's how I see pain, from my point of view.

That chunk of text above was extracted from a letter I wrote to a stranger about a month ago and I doubt that stranger would even read this. Well, this outfit has a special memory behind it. I wore this outfit on the day where it was the last time seeing each other. Well technically we're not strangers but I guess more of acquaintances. Well to be frank, even though we are just acquaintances, that stranger somehow stayed in the back of my mind for a while before I got distracted with other issues in my life. I kept thinking about him. Not because of love, but mainly because there was just something about him that really got me thinking about a lot of other things too. On the side note, I should actually thank him for making me realize certain things about my life.

I know recently my posts has been about just my outfits and stuff but recently I've been thinking about going back to the days where I post up both outfit and personal posts because after all, this journal is literally just about me. That dark side of me wants to be able to channel out too and so yes, I guess I will be writing more personal posts in the future.

For this outfit, I've decided to throw on that cape I bought from F21 in Philippines to add a specific character to this whole assemble. Despite the humid and hot weather in Singapore, I still managed to go around town! (Yes, I did sweat a lot but heck it!) The last time I actually took this cape out for a spin was back in January!

Pairing it together with this vintage blue shirt that my dad gave me (as seen in other outfits because yes I really love that top) and together with my floral ombre pants that I got from H&M (as seen in this outfit) and with my creepers that I have been wearing so frequently that I think I actually live in them!

I've also decided to use Alpine Green socks that I got from Uniqlo with this outfit to give my creepers a different look because most of the time I just wear them with black socks. Speaking of socks, it's time I start stocking up on patterned socks too.

So yeah, I guess that's all for today's outfit post. Till then!