Thoughts thoughts thoughts

Lately i've become more quiet about how I really feel and I usually ignore how im really feeling and act im normal and stuff but at times I really find it hard to really be okay with it. I just want to be happy again. I dont want to be in a consistent bumpy emotional ride where one moment i can be laughing so hard but whenever i'm alone and lost in my sea of thoughts, all I can ever think about is all this fucked up emotions I have.

It's already April. I need to start to make a change, I need to be happy again and let go the past completely. I need to start bringing back all the colours in my life again.

I just want to be happy again.